From Where You Are

Yes, yes... I am long overdue for a real update. Story of my blog life. But I'm sure y'all are all aware (either via twitter, facebook, phone calls, emails, texts) that my life has been turned upside down the past few months.

Anywho, I'm taking a break from packing to bring back my weekly Tuesday Tunes entry that died out months ago. I know... it is technically 2 a.m. on Wednsday, but my mind thinks it's Tuesday. Actually, my mind isn't thinking that... my mind is thinking, "oh shit, it's 2 a.m., I'm leaving for work in 5.5 hours and need to be packed (which I haven't started) and need to finish stapling and alphabetizing this pile of applications I've been working on since Superbowl Sunday."

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While in Hawaii last week, I had a chance to have some alone time up on the Lido deck one evening. All the travelers went to bed early; it had been an extremely exhausting and physically taxing day, and I thought decompressing while star gazing and listening to my ipod would do just the trick. And it did... until... this song came on...

Lifehouse

From Where You Are

My attempt at decompressing became a full-on sob as I thought about my dad. Many of you know that stars are extremely symbolic to me since his passing. As it happens, I was in the middle of "talking" to my dad (aka the brightest star that was closest to me) when this song came on. 

This verse in particular led to my meltdown... 

"So far away from where you are

I'm standing out underneath the stars

And I wish you were here

I miss the years that were erased

I miss the way the sunshine would light up your face

I miss all the little things

I never thought they'd mean everything to mean

Yeah, I miss you

And I wish you were here"