¡Ay, caramba!

Frustration is mounting. I can't get into the details, but I'm very disappointed in certain people, actions and events. For those who know me well, I never use the "d-word," as I call it. So you know it's serious when I do say it. Each day I'm left wondering what I should do. I hate constantly questioning my future.

I'm also frustrated that my headaches have returned after a month hiatus following the spinal tap. In addition to last night's headache, I felt like something was stabbing me in both eyes. I couldn't keep them open - they stung so bad and tears kept streaming down my cheeks. No, I wasn't wearing contacts... I actually had them off for awhile before the pain started. I have a headache right now that started off with a dull pain and has steadily increased the last two hours. Ugh.

My brother and sister-in-law found out the sex of their babies on Saturday. I was bummed that I couldn't be at the reveal party, mainly because it was my idea. But alas, my mom called as they were cutting the cakes to tell me the news - though I didn't get the message until the next morning because my stupid EVO charger stopped working, leaving me with a dead phone until I borrowed a charger from one of my scholars. But I digress. Baby names were already picked out for a boy and girl. Cake #1 - pink on the inside. Cake #2 - pink on the inside. Yup, twin girls...YIPES! So now they have to come up with another name. The for sure name for one of the girls is Payton Leigh. For the second name, they want it to start with A. My suggestions are Alexis and Avery. (Sidenote - Caitlin & Terence, I swear I didn't suggest it because it's Terence's real name... I was just looking at lists and pairing it with our last name.) My brother likes Alexis as well, so that seems to be the front runner at the moment. And yes, I'm forming my own baby name focus group, a la Pregnant in Heels.

My apartment lease is up today. I reluctantly renewed. I was extremely hesitant to hand over the signed paperwork because of my uncertainty with my current situation. I got a ceiling fan/light installed in my living room out of it, and I'm also getting my carpet cleaned. That's apparently supposed to make me feel better about the $50 rent increase.

Anywho, life kinda sucks right now. I actually doodled that during staff meeting this morning. "I hate life. Life sucks." Yup, I'm definitely in a debbie downer mood.