Who Do You Think You Are

C-Rat is completely to blame for this song being stuck in my head! A couple of weeks ago, we watched the music video for Christina Perri's "Jar of Hearts" in C-Rat's office. And now I keep singing it.

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A lyric led to the following exchange between me and BJ about a week ago:

me: "Guess what my motto is for 2011? Well, not really a motto..."
BJ: "Hakuna matata! What's a motto? Nothing, what's a motto with you."

I guess you had to be on the phone. It was funny to us. 

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The lyric I was referring to in my conversation with BJ is: 
"you're gonna catch a cold ~ from the ice inside your soul."


I used to be surrounded by walls. It's how I grew up. My family called me cold-hearted. I'm not a cold-hearted person, but when I spent years not letting anyone get close to me or showing any emotion, I can see how they would think of me that way. 

It wasn't until college that I started tearing down the walls and letting people in. And then after years of getting hurt, I slowly built back up the walls. In 2010, I decided to keep the walls halfway up - putting myself out there a bit, but at the same time being cautious and guarded.

And since 2010 was a shit year, I have decided that this year the walls will be up, as sturdy as possible. That might make me seem like I have ice inside my soul, but oh well. 

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Disclaimer: I am not directing this song at anyone from my past. It is merely a song that is stuck in my head.

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Christina Perri

"Jar of Hearts"

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For fellow So You Think You Can Dance tv-goers, you will recognize Allison in the video.